Friday, January 22, 2016

Snowing Heavy

The snow is really coming down and it is accumulating fast.  I think I will go out and clean the snow off of the car periodically throughout the day so that it doesn't become a chore when and if I need to use the car.

It is expected to snow heavily here for 24 hours and they are saying that we can expect 2 inches of snow every hour.  That's a lot of snow for our roofs, but I can't do anything about that.  I am snowed in here alone for the second winter in a row, but as long as I have heat I will be fine.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Had to Share this......

I'm doing fine

Things are better for me at the moment, in fact they are great except that I'm stuck here at home because of two to three inches of snow on the ground with more expected to fall by Friday.  I think I just heard on the radio that five more inches are expected to fall on Friday.

I got back together with Steve this past week and things couldn't be better.  I still have my friendship with Rick, which I wouldn't give up for any amount of money in the world.  My relationship with Steve has been rocky, but this time we are talking and we have an understanding, so I think all will be much better now.  We had lots of misunderstandings and we both listened to people we shouldn't have listened to, and that's why things never worked out for us.  I love Steve and he loves me, so that's all that matters for now.  Some people say that he is, not Jimmy, and that's right, but there will never be another Jimmy, and I don't expect to find anyone like Jimmy because he was one of a kind.

Steve and Rick are both special to me and I love them both in different ways, and for different reasons.  They have both been here for me this past year when I needed someone most after Jimmy died.   They helped me cope and they made me laugh again when I thought my life was over.  Steve brought love and tenderness back into my life, and Rick is stable, strong, dependable and caring, and they are both very good friends.  Most people don't understand the connection that I have for these two men, and that I hold near and dear to my heart, but it's not for all to understand, just me.  

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Black Eyes

I failed to mention in any previous posts that I have two black eyes, and that I look like a raccoon.  I fell the night of January 7th while getting up during the night and I tripped on something which put a pop-knot on my forehead.  I didn't trip on a cat as some of you might think, but maybe on my own loose PJ bottoms that drag the floor.  At first it was only a pop-knot, but as the days rolled by my eyes turned black and I also had some bruising on each side of the bridge of my nose.  The bruises under my eyes, forehead and nose are clearing up, but you can still see them even with sunglasses on. I was trying to hide my bruises, but Suzanne spotted them right off today, so I guess everyone else I have been talking to has also seen them, but just has been polite enough not to say anything to me about them.   

Hahaha, and here I thought I was hiding them behind sunglasses.  I came on home today after Suzanne asked me how I got two black eyes, and I put makeup over them, but now they really show up like sore thumbs.  I'm going to stay in for the rest of the night and hope that tomorrow they will lighten up some more.

Still Lost

I'm doing fairly well this morning mentally.  Physically I am without any real health problems.  My life isn't where I would like it to be, but there are many people out there who are facing the same obstacles that I am facing.  I'm not alone in that respect.

I don't have much to say, but I just thought I would write something here to let my family know that I am still alive, but not so well.  I'm not sick as I said in paragraph one, just not quite right yet.  I'm still lost after the death of Jimmy, and I still haven't found my way and I guess that is why nothing seems to work for me.  I don't know how to fix things and make things right again, but maybe I can't ever make things right.  Everyone who has been through such an ordeal tells me that I will always feel this way and that I will just eventually learn to live with it, or to deal with it.  There is no magic pill that will make everything alright.

I love my necklace

Wednesday, January 06, 2016

All is Better

The New Year started out Great!  I'm back with Steve and I'm happy.  We hang out with Rick on weekends and in the evenings when Rick is off work occasionally.  That's all I have to say.