I'm waiting, watching and listening for the sounds of Springtime. The birds are singing more loudly and our maples are budding. We also have some flower shoots emerging from beneath the ground.
The birds are letting me get closer, but so far it's only the finches who are the most cooperative about my presence.
It rained all day yesterday and it certainly wasn't fit to be out walking on soggy, and sometimes muddy, grass. Sis was buried yesterday and we said our final goodbyes. I hate funerals because they are so sad and it's the time when it really sinks into your brain that they are not coming back...that it's final and you will not be seeing them again here on earth.
Everyone who attended the funeral gathered at Sis's church afterwards. The church ladies did a fantastic job of preparing homemade dishes, way too many for me to list here or to even remember. The meal did not go unappreciated and I would like to thank those wonderful ladies and I'm sure a man or two for their kind deeds.
But there's one thing that I have to say to all that were there....We have got to stop meeting like this! We have met twice this month to say our farewells to loved ones and it has got to stop. I know they say things come in three's, and if you count Long Haired Daddy's father, and Aaron's younger brother we have certainly had our share of grief for awhile.
So I sit here and I'm waiting for happier times for us. Because besides the deaths, there has been a hospitalization, for the second time, of one family member who I worry about very much who is having trouble with severe depression. I want this person to feel happiness in each waking day and I think once Spring is here and the sun starts shining and we get rid of all of these gray clouds that hang over our heads daily, that things will get better for this person. Depression takes you to the depths of despair and hopelessness and is such a crippling disease and I wish no one had to suffer with these feelings & emotions. I wish I knew what to do for them and I wish I could wave a magic wand and fix them.