Thursday, March 31, 2016

Wishful Thinking

I realize now that Facebook is not a place to air my feelings because they elicit sympathy, and that's not what I want.  I only want to explain how I am feeling.  I have fallen deeply in love four times in my entire life and I have not made the right choice in men 75% of the time.  That means that I only have had one successful and truly happy relationship in my life.  The other three were one sided....I loved them with all my heart, but they didn't love me enough.  Those three were unfaithful to me and two left me.

At this moment I am very sad and somewhat depressed.  I try to fill my days with activities like spending time with girl friends, but I am always aware that I am alone, that someone I loved with all my heart left me.  The hurt is unbearable at times when I am left alone with my thoughts.  I am a nice person, and I loved this other person with all my heart.  I gave him everything, but it apparently wasn't enough for him.  He left me anyway.  He'll never know how much I really loved him.  I hope that someday he will turn around and say to someone, "she really did love me, and I'm sorry that I broke her heart.  She was the best thing that ever happened to me, and I shouldn't have ever left her."

3 comments:

Alipurr said...

Aww hugs Sandy. I've enjoyed seeing you more on facebook, but totally understand. I guess things like this are why people write poems and songs about taking things one day at a time. Love you

Alipurr said...

Aww hugs Sandy. I've enjoyed seeing you more on facebook, but totally understand. I guess things like this are why people write poems and songs about taking things one day at a time. Love you

TomDennis Diaz said...

I like faceBook and I like the blogs. I like writing the best but sometimes I get things mixed up and put them on Facebook. Whatever! Your friends and family will always love you.
My best thing I have ever done was to beg my family to get online.