My son is no longer with us. My son is no longer with his family where he is supposed to be. My son is gone. He was taken from this life much too soon. We were not ready. We didn't have time to prepare. We didn't have time to say, "Goodbye." Did he know how much we all loved him? Did he know how much I would miss him, how much his family would miss him, how much his sisters would miss him? Did he know how much this little boy, in the picture, needed him in his life? How much we all needed him in our lives?
Thinking back.......
Brian still had many plans & dreams for his future. The last day that I got to spend with him, I took him to a regularly scheduled doctor's appointment, then we went shopping. Brian needed a new warm hat and gloves. He was planning to do some riding on his scooter and it was still cold outside. He wanted us to take some short slow rides to break-in his brand new re-built scooter, so that he could eventually take a long ride to visit Reva, Brandon & Doug in Somerset, Ky. when he felt better. He wasn't feeling very well that day.
Brian had bought a brand new 2020 150cc Tao Tao that ran perfectly with his first stimulus check. He tore it down and completely disassembled it and re-built a 170cc scooter with flashing lights, Blue Tooth cell phone and music system, all kinds of gauges & gadgets, longer kickstand, bigger more powerful battery, lots of bells n whistles and two anti-theft alarm systems. I can't possibly name all the extras that he put on that scooter. He also had plans to fix my scooter for me. He was talented that way and very skilled at what he did.
Brian was naturally smart and could do anything he set his mind to do, and if he was unsure about something, he would do extensive research and make notes and learn all he could about whatever he was researching. He had a journal of notes that none of us could understand.
He had an IQ of 165 and got a Degree in Electrical Engineering from the University of Kentucky. He had a 4.0 GPA and was in the Who's Who of Kentucky Graduates. His engineering degree was only one of his many accomplishments, but one he was very proud of. During his education he helped design a mechanical hand prosthesis that operated using your own body's impulses from the brain to operate it. There was no end to his abilities, and if he would have been given the chance to leave Cynthiana, him and Reva could have had anything they both desired. He had many lucrative & exciting job offers, but was forced to remain in Cynthiana making any commute to a good job almost impossible. Things changed throughout the years, and they finally moved away from Cynthiana and ended up back here in Berea for a while.
During Brian's last year of life, he moved back here to Berea by himself to live out the last year of his life. I enjoyed having him near, but he missed his family and hoped that they would join him here, and he almost got his wish before he died, almost.
I miss my son very much. I think of him daily and he is always in my thoughts and in my prayers, day and night. I pray that he didn't suffer, and that he just fell asleep and never woke up. I pray that he wasn't upset or depressed, and that he just fell asleep while watching TV. There was no autopsy, so the manner of his death will never be known for sure. The coroner just called it a heart attack on site and that was that.I LOVE YOU BRIAN!!!
REST IN PEACE